Here I was editing my book that’s publishing in a few weeks and I was blessed with such a wonderful testimony from a beautiful soul who took my Unblock Into Alignment: The Deep Dive! program. I have known her for 4-5 years, but she recently took this program to show support. She got a nice surprise from it, and I am so happy for her because I have helped HER when she has always been the one to help ME.
A little bit of progress each day adds up to BIG results. Seriously. Manifesting is a JOURNEY, it’s not a destination. In order to receive MORE blessings and abundance into your life, plant seeds of gratitude and take soul-aligned actions DAILY. You’ve got this, I totally believe in you!
And if you want some help in how to UNBLOCK and BREAKUP with limiting mindset beliefs, behaviors, and patterns, take my Unblock Into Alignment: The Deep Dive! program! It’s my 12-day mindset-shifting and soul-transformation program and this is what you get:
▪ You will learn HOW TO identify what’s keeping you feeling stuck
▪ Be able to understand WHY you are feeling stuck around certain areas in your life
▪ Learn how to RELEASE these stubborn mental blocks and patterns
▪ AND be able to clean your mental and emotional slate to make way for your NEWLY CREATED mindset belief system of positive AND abundant living!
It’s time to live FROM your soul’s core of authentic happiness!
I am a HUGE animal lover and I just added a donations page to my website. Each month I make a donation to various animal organizations. I am deeply touched by the ASPCA. No pressures, of course, I am just the spreading the message to prevent animal cruelty.
You’re high vibe. You’re so high vibe because the sun stayed out of your eyes while you drove to and from work today. You’re high vibin’ because it was a quick and easy process to style your hair and make-up this morning before you hit the pedal to the metal.
You’re so high vibe as you sip your coffee/latte as it tastes as smooth as silk to your tongue because it was perfectly crafted on this day. You’re high as fuck because most of your day has been pretty easy breezy, for the most part (minus that annoying coworker who can’t seem to get on the ball- again).
You’re high vibe and life is just going easy as pie.
Then the next day comes.
The alarm went off too soon. The cat won’t stop banging on the blinds while you try to sleep for another 16 minutes. You glance at the clock and you have 23 minutes until you have to be out the door. The barista spills your latte, tack on another 5 minutes to the rush…
The phone won’t stop ringing and the emails keep coming while you try to seek peace at your desk. One after another. The inbox is filling up again.
You sneak out off to lunch, yet a coworker stops you wanting to ask you something when you are 8 feet from the door.
You are gasping for air.
Then you realize this week is “payday” week and you think, “at least I have a silver lining to look forward to in a few days.”
The remaining few days feel like the movie, “Groundhog Day”. Over and over, the same feelings of suffocation and anxiety start seeping more and more into your mindset. You are still spending each day doing your Mastering Your Mindset journaling, you still listen to your motivational speakers each morning, you still state your affirmations over and over again. Why won’t this headache go away? Why is my sister calling me and complaining all of the time? She never listens to me…why are the kids STILL making a mess in the kitchen despite the fact that I have told them repeatedly OVER AND OVER again to “clean up when you are finished.” I need to make a sign to stick on the fridge to remind them…oh shoot, I meant to stop at Walgreens on the way home today to pick up my prescription! GREAT.
Payday comes and you breathe a sigh of relief: finally! You pay all of the bills for the month…WHAT!?? $50 left until next month’s pay????
Panic sets in, the anxiety is overwhelming. Why doesn’t this affirmation shit work for ME? Why am I ALWAYS stuck in life? Why am I ALWAYS FUCKING BROKE!? This will never get better for me, I’m always going to be feeling this way, nothing ever goes right for me. Why is everyone else always sailing along on the journey of life more easily than I am? Why can’t it happen for me, too? What is wrong with me? Something must be wrong with me…why can’t I just seem to GET IT like others do when it comes to manifesting my wants and life goals?
I give up. Fuck it. I don’t give a shit any longer. Law of attraction is bullshit. Life sucks.
This blog post may not be the best article you read, nor may it be one that will stay within your memory after today; but, I must be candid for a few minutes.
Depression is a serious disease. I should know because without my medication I would be in it all over again. My entire business is around helping other souls with their mindset and their mindset beliefs. My purpose and message to the Universe is to help others manifest whatever it is they truly desire into their lives. My focus and passion is to help any and every soul I can help to live in true, authentic happiness. And today I sort of feel like a fraud after the news of Anthony Bourdain. He was a rare gem in this world, not one to shy away from being 100% honest, even if it made you cringe a little sometimes. I feel defeated in an odd way because I can understand how he must have been feeling. Here I am telling souls day after day that they can successfully shift their mindset, and maybe people who follow me never even knew what I was going through, myself.
However, I am proof that you CAN get better. 9 years ago I tried to take my own life. I remember that night so clearly. I remember bawling in the fetal position on the bathroom floor of my apartment for hours. I remember my inner demons telling me it “can’t get better”. I remember taking a massive amount of prescription pills and trying to slit my wrists to the music of Elton John’s “Someone Saved My Life Tonight”. Little did I know that song was going to play a more pivotal role leading to my own survival.
I was in a really bad relationship with a narcissist for about 2 years. I am an empath, meaning I absorb a lot of people’s energies around me. No matter how hard I try to surround myself with a clear, protective bubble, people’s energies can really soak into me. I remember how my attempt at suicide didn’t work, I felt awful the next day. I was so far down the depression hole at the time that I didn’t feel awful out of guilt- no way. I was so far “gone”. I felt awful because the night before I had sent my “goodbye” emails and there I was still (undeservingly ) breathing the next day. I remember the narcissist telling me, “you only did this to get attention”, when in actuality I did it because I was trying to escape from him, from life, from myself.
So why didn’t it work 9 years ago when I attempted? I realized a few months later everything really does happen for a reason. I truly believe I had to hit “rock bottom” in order to understand what I was actually going through at 26 years old. At the time, when I was in my relationship with the narcissist, I didn’t even know what a “narcissist” was until after I attempted to end it all and shortly after decided to go to cognitive therapy. If I had known that my inner demons were so powerfully volatile, and that there IS actually a light at the end of the tunnel, I may not have tried to so hard to say “goodbye” on that strange night. If I had known and understood the complexities of the brain and outside influences (such as toxic relationships with a narcissist), I may not have had such a strong urge to end it all.
I truly believe what I went through prepared me for what I am now doing 9 years later at 35 years old: teaching other souls in this world to KEEP GOING. Everything stems from our mindset. The mind can be so restless, but it doesn’t have to control you. And while depression feels 1000% real within ourselves, there truly IS another direction we can start mentally moving towards in order to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Leaving our earth is not the ONLY option. It’s not easy, but it’s definitely doable.
If you or anyone you know is suffering from depression, I strongly urge going to cognitive therapy. This type of therapy is actually what saved my life the next night, and every night since then until I was fully healed. While I do not hold a PhD in psychology, I do what I can as a mentor to help people shift their mindset to the best of their abilities. It is time to be OPEN and HONEST about depression and mental illness. There is NOTHING wrong with having a mental illness. And it does NOT have to control you and your life. You CAN live in authentic happiness with the proper guidance and support system surrounding you. And it can start today, right now.
Do not give up. Keep going. You are NOT alone. It is perfectly OKAY to seek help. And it is perfectly OKAY to be honest and REAL in this world. Each and every single one of us is a faceted gem that help to shape this world we live in. And you are such a rarity in this Universe. You ARE needed here, with us.